In 20 days I will be holding our baby boy! I really can't believe it. It was a long journey to get here, and I can't describe how good it feels to finally have found true love and happiness.

Many of you, who are close to me, know that seven years ago I was going through one of the hardest times of my life. My first marriage had come to an end. - and it was quite traumatic. I had a one year old and a three month old. And I was going to raise them by myself. Trust me, I believed that from that moment on it was just me and them. After the hurt that I had experienced, and the emptiness that I believed they were going to be scarred by, I decided never to expose myself to the type of relationship that could put us through that again. But, seven years is a long time and a lot of healing took place during that time.

Obviously it didn't happen overnight. It literally took almost all seven years. There were days when I thought I could take on the whole world by myself. And that I was doing just that to give my boys everything I possibly could and to fill any void they might feel. And I think I was doing a damn good job.

I had, and still have, one hell of a support system too. I have a family that has always been here for me. Whenever I needed them or whenever my boys have needed them, they have been there. They literally picked me up from the lowest point in my life. And I have true friends who have always been there, and who I am so blessed are still here with me. Through all of that though there was no denying that I had hoped I would find the person I was really supposed to spend my life with, and  that I would actually get to have a happily ever after.

I'm glad I waited as long as I did, because one unexpected day I found him. Or we found each other. At a gas station - of all places! Yes, I was pumping gas, and he was coming out of the store to head to work. And then - thank you Facebook - he sent me a message, saying "Hey was that you?" I'm so glad he did. And I'm so glad that when we both were too afraid of the feelings we had for each other, and the direction our relationship was heading, that we didn't let fear take over. Because if we had, I wouldn't be married to the man of my dreams. A man I love more than I ever thought I could. My boys wouldn't have a stepdad who is more of a father to them than I could ever have imagined or hoped for. And we wouldn't be preparing to welcome home our own baby boy.

His name will be Layton. And I can't wait to hold him in my arms. I can't wait to see my husbands face and to tell him how much I love him and always will in the moments after our son is born. I can't wait to raise him together, with our children, and to have this big, crazy, happy family.

I can't believe I will have a new baby in 20 days! I am so thankful to have been blessed with everything that I have been given. My life couldn't have turned out any better. I'm the happiest I've ever been and I'm confident that as days go on I am only going to get happier. And I can't wait to introduce our baby to all of you!